Tonight, on Letterman...
I'm convinced I'm going to get pregnant this cycle. I hate that about myself. Because at the same time, I know that there's an overwhelmingly more likely chance that I will not get pregnant this cycle....
View ArticleAnd the Universe Laughs in My Face
Well, it's about time the Universe got even with me for writing my last post, filled with naive optimism. I suppose this is what I get for thinking that I have any sort of control of my own fertility.A...
View ArticleSoul Mate
Last Friday night was game night. As usual, we went to our friends Matt and Lindsay's house, and Bobby spent the first hour playing with their young kids. Yep - being super adorable. They love him....
View ArticleBallin'
I did ovulate this cycle, which is good news I suppose. However it was pretty late. Like Day 22 or 23. I think we had sex the day before the temperature spike or maybe two days before (I'm so good at...
View ArticleProm
Last Friday night was prom. Not my prom, of course, but prom for the kids Bobby and I coach. The week before, I borrowed (shamelessly stole) a page from Amber's playbook and gave my girls a "Prom...
View ArticleThe Nausea Dilemma
Do you want to know the absolute worst thing for an infertile to feel when her period is about to arrive (or even a day or two late)? Nausea. Why? Because nausea is real. It's a real-life pregnancy...
View ArticleMother's Day
The original title of this post was going to be something like, "Fuck Mother's Day," but that sounded entirely too inappropriate. And this blog is nothing if not oozing with class and sophistication....
View ArticleA Fine Line
"Don't drink out of this!" I warn Bobby as I see him coming down the hall towards the bathroom. I hold up the little plastic medicine cup I swiped from the top of an old Robitussin bottle."Why not?" he...
View ArticleLife and Death
This world we live in, the way things happen, it's strange, right? Things like birth and death seem so mysterious...and yet, they just happen. Every day. Yesterday, I saw something for the very first...
View ArticleWait
I'm waiting.Is anyone else waiting?It's CD29 and 6dpo for me. My cycles have somewhat regulated themselves into 33-35 day cycles, which I suppose is good because I didn't ovulate until Day 24. My...
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Help?
Well, I need some help. Or advice. Or tough love. Whatever your specialty is, I need it. Yesterday I had pretty much resigned myself that this cycle was a bust. I was only 8dpo, and my temperature...
View ArticleCode Red
I'm calling it. This cycle is dead.It's not officially CD1 yet, but it's either today or tomorrow. I spotted on and off yesterday, and even a little bit on Saturday. So I, of course, googled "spotting...
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The Plan
I married Bobby when I was 22 years old--that had always been the plan. I was ready to settle down after finishing college.I worked at a comfortable, well-paying job for a few years after marriage, and...
View ArticleNew Things
800mg Vitex + 100mg B6. That was the plan for this month to try to lengthen my luteal phase. Well, it’s CD22, and I’m still a few days away from a positive OPK. Like it will probably be positive on...
View ArticleChecking In
Well, friends, a few of you have shown some concern in my absence these last few weeks. I didn't mean to leave you all hanging. I just sort of...left. I stepped back, I talked to several people about...
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I'm That Girl
You know those people who like to tell infertiles to “just relax” or “go on vacation” or “just adopt—then you’ll get pregnant for sure”? Of course you know them. I know them too. They’re dicks. I mean,...
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The Non-Update
For all of you eagerly awaiting to find out what's happening with my "pregnancy," here is your update: nothing. Nothing is happening.Well, that's not exactly true, but let's back up.I've lamented the...
View ArticleSome Good News
I missed a phone call last night, and when I listened to the message, it was my new OB Dr. G. The message said he saw me on his calendar for next month, and he wanted to chat. He had called around 5:30...
View ArticleSurreal
So I'm pretty sure that yesterday I was living someone else's life. My doctor had told me I could bring Bobby to the ultrasound if I wanted to, but since I was so early there wasn't a whole lot to see...
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